Marriage 31
You are an insecure person. That is
not an insult but rather a simple statement of fact. How do I know? Because you
are a human being. Some of us are insecure and hide it behind a false front of
machismo and bravado. Others of us are insecure yet refuse to admit it. Still
others of us are insecure, and let it bleed through into our personality
constantly. We call the latter drama queens. The truth is all of us are drama
queens in one way or another. Some are just more visible than others.
Disappointment often brings that
insecurity to the fore. Our thinking, feelings, and even sometimes our speech
and actions fall victim to it. Our inner man is always weak, yet sometimes it
is weaker than at other times, or perhaps I should say more noticeably weak. We
notice it. Others notice it. Sometimes both. We lose a job and cannot find
another. We are forced into bankruptcy or lose a home to foreclosure. Our
children rebel against us and the Lord. Our besetting sin gets the upper hand
in a way that seems final. Our marriage develops serious stress fractures. Such
examples could be multiplied ad infinitum. The result is an inward (and
sometimes outward) "I'm a loser" type of attitude or feeling.
The real issue will not be found in
the list I just gave. The actual problem is that God never designed us to get
our self-worth and emotional security from that which we personally accomplish.
Nebuchadnezzar looked at the empire he built through the lens of its greatest
city and uttered the infamous line, Is not this great Babylon which I have
built? (Daniel 4.30) No, it was not. It was not great nor had he built it.
It was temporarily impressive because the Lord had designed it to accomplish
something in His purpose. And God had to take it away from him via taking him
away from it in order to reveal that to him.
God did not design us to get our
self-worth from any human accomplishment or relationship; He designed us to get
our self-worth and, thus, our emotional security from what He did and does for
us. He made us in His own image. (Psalm 8) He valued us so highly and
loved us so much He sacrificed His own Son for us. (John 3.16) I am
valuable, I am worth something because I am worth something in His eyes. The
proof is not that something is going right in my life; the proof is the price
the Creator was willing to pay for my soul.
What does this have to do with
marriage and the home? Only everything. I am not a worthless human being if my
marriage dissolves. My life is not a waste if my children rebel. Both of those
will hurt indescribably should they happen to you, but they do not mean that
you are a loser. You were not a winner when your marriage was sweet, and your
children were obedient; you are not a loser if the opposite becomes true. You
are a winner, so to speak, because you are valuable in your Lord’s eyes, made
in His image, redeemed by His blood, purchased for His own purposes.
Emotional security can only come from
one source: Him. Millennia ago, the sweet psalmist of Israel expressed this
truth in the broken shards of Psalm 62. My soul, wait thou only God; For my
expectation is from him. Find your all in all in Him, your meaning and
purpose in life, your emotional security, your expectations and fulfilments. All
my springs are in thee. (Psalm 87.7)
I am not saying the state of your
marriage does not matter; it obviously does. But your self-worth is not defined
by it. It is defined by Him.